Dear beloved one,
You hurt me today. You hurt me so much because you played with me. I do not know if you do it on prupose, if you like to play with my feelings or if you do not even think about it.
You hurt me, because you did something nice and then something horrible. It is like if you kissed me and then slapped me in the face. That is how it feels like. It is bitterweet.
You smiled and winked at me. And then you ignored me. You showed me your secret and then you wouldn't reveal another one. You let me being close to you and then you denied it.
Dear beloved one, I can't take this anymore. Can't you decide? Don't you want to decide?
I wished I was different. I wished I was able to disappear. I wished I was able to vanish from the surface of the earth.
And I wished you would feel like if you suffered a loss.